I know what you mean, in a way. I can’t relate to everything you’re going through, but I find that ever since the pandemic/lockdown began I’ve been such a nervous wreck over making one wrong move and infecting us (my spouse is immune-compromised), that it’s been tough to do anything other than simple projects. I do both knit and crochet, but I find that I’m doing more crocheting than knitting...I find it to be more relaxing. I keep wishing for things to go back to normal, too. I have a knitting/crocheting group that meets once a week—it’s just not quite the same thing over Zoom.